HOW TO PROPOSE TO MY LOVER

This post is part of a flash fiction inspired by you and creatively produced in conjunction with StormBox.

Buy her nothing. In her delusions, love is something that can power everything. Humour her starving artist fantasies by giving her the things that cost almost nothing. Talk to her, she will like that. Listen like you enjoy every word she speaks. Notice the birthmark on her right thigh and comment on how she has a resting innocent face.

Never hold back. Inherently, she is amazing. Her mind is unmatched; tell her, she doesn’t know. Tell her when she does something you hate, chastise her when she cooks supper too late. Call when you miss her. Let her feel the vibration of your yearning when you are next to her. Speak about feelings, sex, religion, politics and all the other things people are afraid to. Entertain the prospects of time travel and mention how she is yours in every possible outcome in all the alternate universes. Unburden your soul. She probably won’t relate to all of it but she will understand it all. Act like it is your very last day on earth with her, never hold back.
Share everything. Remember the feeling of your off-size uniform in high school? Share that feeling with her. Let her see through your eyes how your school trousers faded as the years turned you from a boy to a man. Don’t hide the anger when you talk about your nasty ex or that one time you wanted to try ecstasy. Losing your virginity felt like it was orchestrated by Eros, like Eros himself wanted you to tell her the sensational story one day. Tell and she will laugh because that is what she does, her laugh is alive, she laughs like she has never seen sadness. Show her every part of your soul; the parts you like, the parts that are a mess, the parts you are afraid of and the parts that are wrinkled and unknown. Together you will uncover and straighten them out.
Laugh with her. She likes your crooked smile and your accidental laughter. Find the beauty in the sadness and celebrate it with laughter. Celebrate Dandy Krazy and quote him in your inside jokes. Use the words you two make up generously and try to live every day in the impenetrable dome your love has created.
I’d do all this myself but I am getting married in an hour. My suit fits so well I can hear her comment on my butt. I can still hear her in my head sometimes but I hope her voice fades as I walk down the aisle. When you propose to my lover make it amazing. Make her success in forgetting me be as grand as my inability to forget her.