AN ODE TO YOU, MY LIFE PARTNER

Have we done this before? If I have already written to or about you consider this a part two. If I haven’t then… HI!!

Do you like the colour blue? Do you still believe in love? Do you like deep conversations and warm weather, me sitting on the floor while the fan evaporates the sweat off my thick thighs? Or maybe you’re a cold weather and silence while eye contact makes loud whispers kind of guy? Lucky for you I can do both.

This an ode to you.

I’m not calling you husband, boyfriend or lover. Right now even calling you my life partner seems heavy. Because all those guys who have said it to me before were right, titles make things heavy and stiff. In my head I’m imagining that you’re going through someone or some things that will make you better and teach you to love me. I know that I definitely am. My recent lesson has been trust. Because you are the one I am going to trust with all the parts of me. The ugly, the complex, the creative, the outrageously sexy and the hidden and shy; everything.

You know that I am Christian. I don’t know how you know this but it is important to me that you know this. Christian is not synonymous with perfect. That means I’m prone to mistakes, I don’t know everything and that is why I choose to put my faith in he who does. I hope you enjoy his love, because he is love. You see, he is the one who taught me how to love me.

You know what I’m looking forward to? The feeling of knowing. Saying your name with that knowledge. There is that way that we all say the names of those we love, pronouncing each syllable and consonant as mine. Yeah, I’m possessive but not clingy. I don’t want you to like what I like or do what I do. I just want you to be completely whole, passionate about living your life and then we can live our lives together. I want to empower you, be there for you. I want to think with you and inspire you but at the same time I want you to want me, not need me. Is that twisted? Life is stuffy with negative energy, I want to refresh you as much as you refresh me. People are used to building walls to protect themselves from the nastiness of human existence. I won’t need a wall around you.

What scars? What pain? I’m looking forward to a new slate with you. In the meantime I’m working on being the best version of me every single day.

See you soon life partner…