JUST A BUNCH OF WORDS ABOUT A CONFUSED MIND

And he said “You deserve better”

Emotion ran through me as I realized the humanity that was taking place. It’s true what they say about family, friends and strangers. Well sort of. Many quotes about friendships and family and a thousand warnings from momma about trusting strangers. Yet here I was, indebted to this stranger I met a few minutes ago. It was hard to comprehend the full meaning of this.

See I’m not a religious person. I believe in being good and kind and all that because it’s what the essence of humanity or being human is all about. But if I’m to refer to Christianity’s bible then it meant I was standing in the presence of God. Not in the physical form but through this physical being in front of me he was manifesting his “presumed” greatness. This was a generosity that I didn’t expect in my wildest dreams.

See as much as I believe in humanity, I have little faith in humans. Very ironic right? But it has everything to do with my experience with humans. Made in “God’s” image but molded in Lucifer’s ways. Self-centered to the core. I know we are not perfect. If we were then we would have been made in our own image. Wait! What am I saying? What I’m saying is even the supernatural aren’t perfect, that’s why we are who we are. To err is human and to forgive divine. But since we are made in HIS image then we are both human and divine. I digress.

So, at that moment a whirlwind of thoughts ran through my mind. Is this a sign? Is this my wakeup call? Is this the message I’ve been waiting for? What next? Hypocritical really, because every time I’m bestowed with kindness or luck I don’t thank fate, I believe and loudly proclaim divine intervention using phrases like “I’m God’s favorite” or “Jesus walks with me”. Infact to some extent I’m probably the guy with the most faith living. Cos I always believe something will happen even when the situation seems hopeless. LOL.

Confused is what I feel. A battle. To think for self is both a gift and a curse. Because through that ability or function I am made to read both the Satanic Bible and the Good News Bible in order to gain an understanding of what is really going on. I love to read all sorts of spiritual books. And I believe it is a very good thing. It is, however, a recipe for disaster. Good and bad or relative after all right? Who can quantify them? are they measurable? is it not just perception? i might be contradicting myself here but hey...food for thought.

Anyway, the stranger that showed me that humanity is still alive today. That stranger that gave more than I prolly could have given in a similar situation. I’m still overwhelmed.

Right now I’m still tranna fit in. but I like it out here. Just impressed with that one human.

Plus that beautiful friend of mine insists i'm bipolar.